Thereseemedtobeanemphasisonthewordeveryone,butHarrydeideditwasimagined.Still,thewordheldweight.

Hewasn’ththelifetheyhadallowedhimbylosingtheirs.Hewaswallowing.Heknewhewaswallowing.Andtheworstpartofitallwasthatsomepartofhismindfeltthatheouldjustifyit.HeknewSiriuswouldn’twanthimtowallow.Hisparentswouldn’twanthimto,norwouldFred,norwouldTonksorLupin.Andshouldn’tthatbeenough?Butthenagain,whatwouldDraoMalfoywant?WouldheliketoseeHarrysulkingbeauseofhim?Perhapshewouldsmirkandsay“Ah,Potter,Ineverknewyouared,”inthatinfuriatingbutsowellpratiedpatronizingtoneofhis.Andthen,whenHarrythoughtofmovingon,heouldonlyimaginethewoundedlookonMalfoy’sfae,theonethathewantedyoutothinkwaspretendbutwasreallymorelosetothetruththanhearedtoadmit.Andinaftvoie,whihwasalwaysworseomingfromMalfoy(hisaiditywas),hewouldsay“Sosoon,Potter?Careful,orpeoplewillthinkyou’rehappyaboutit.”

Harrywastrying.HewastryingtoonvinehimselfthatMalfoywouldn’tareatall.Anditwasn’tsosoon.Ithadnearlybeenfouryears.Everyone,evenMalfoy’sownmother,seemedtobefaringbetterthanHarry.

“Ifyououldtellme,”MGonagallinterruptedhisthought,“beforetheendofthisterm,Iwouldappreiateit.JustsoIanfindarepementshouldyourefuse,orsoyououldstartyourstudiesshouldyouaept.Ibelievetherearestillsomelessonpnsleftinthessroomfrompreviousteahersshouldyouneedreferene,althoughIwouldbegyoutorefrainfromusingtoomanyofLokhart’s.IknowLupinleftafew,aswell,whihIthinkIwouldene.”

Harrynodded,feelingabitoverwhelmed.

“IwasalsourgedbyHagridtoremindyouthathewouldbehappytoseeyouagain.Evenofferedtobakeyouabirthdayakethisyearshouldyoubeonthegrounds,”MGonagalladded,andwiththistherewasagleamofmishiefinhereye.

Itwashalfpastoneinthem.Harryhadfallenintoaterriblesleeppattern,spendingmostofhistimealone,whihhefoundwaseasiertodowhennooneelsewasawaketobotherhim.Tonight,hefeltlikehewouldratherliketosleep,butithadbeomeanimpossibility.Hogwartshadalwaysbeenmoreofahometohimthananyotherpehehadlived,evennow,havinglivedatGrimmauldPeforseveralyears.Buttheageoldphrase“youannevergohomeagain”rangthroughhisheadattheprospetofreturning.Andintruth,heouldn’t.Hewouldreturnthistimeasateaher,notastudent.Mostofthepeoplethatmadeithomeweregone,aswell.Dumbledorewouldnotbethere,outsideofhisportrait.herwouldanyoftheWeasleys,orHermione,or—histrainofthoughtsputteredtoastop.OrDrao.HewasmildlyarmedthatMalfoywasinludedinthelistofpeoplethatmadetheastleahome,asformostofhislifehehadregardedhimwiththesamedistasteashehadDudley,butevenmoreso,hewasstartledbytheworditself.Hehadthought“orDrao.”Fullstop.Period.Heknewformalitydidn’tmatterinhisownmind,buthehadneverbeenDraotoHarry.Harryhadneveroneeventhoughttorefertohimbyhisfirstname.Hewasn’tentirelysurehehadeverevensaiditaloudonitsown.

“Drao,”hewhispered,barelyanoise,yetalltooloudinhisquiethouse.Thewordfeltoddinhismouth.Hishesttightenedinexpliablyandhefoughttheurgetory.Heshookhishead,tryingtolearthefeeling.

Heametoadeision.Heouldnotbesatathome,alone,whisperingadeadboy’snameinhiskithen.Surely,afewmonthsmoreofthisandhewouldbeompletelymad.

HejotteddownanoteandwhistledforBo?tes,whoheheardrufflehisfeathersintheotherroomandthenameflyingthroughthedoorway.

HetiedthenotetoBo?tes’sleg,thenstoppedtosraththetopofhisowl’shead.

“Takethisto,MGonagall,wouldyou?Maybetakealookintheowlerywhileyou’rethere.You’llbespendingquitealotoftimethereIimagine,”hemurmured,slippingBo?tesatreat.

Maybeitwastrue.Maybeheouldnevergohome,buthell,ifhewasn’tgoingtotry.

Chapter3

“DidItellyouMr.PotterwillbereturningtoHogwarts?”MGonagallaskedasually,sippingherteaatherdesk.

Draohokedonthemouthfulofteahehadbeenswallowing.

“Exuseme?”hesaid,tryingnottosoundtooshoked.

“IaskedhimtofilltheDefenseposition,”MGonagallontinued,seeminglyoblivioustoDrao’sshok.

“Right,”Draonodded.Thefeelingbegantoleahfromhishands,whihseemedtobehisbody’sgotoreationtoanythingPotter.Hesetdownhismug.

“Ionlywarnyoubeause,asyouknow,Potterhasanaffinityforsnoopingandsneakingabout,andIamnotsurehe’sgrownoutofit.Youmustbearefulatnight.Disillusionyourselfuntilyouareoutonthegrounds,andmaybeevenwhileyou’rewalkingabout,unlessyou’vehanged,”sheontinued.

Draonodded.

“You’lllikelyhavetostopyourworkinthekithens.Helikestotakehismealsthereoasionally,ifmemoryservesmeright,”sheadded.

“Justtellhimnottoomebetweenfiveandseveninthem,”Draoasked,hopingitdidn’tsoundtoodesperate.Helikedthekithen,andhelikedtheelves.Theywere,afterall,thelosestthinghehadtofriends.

“Ianhardlymakearulethatspeifi,Mr.Malfoy,espeiallysineMr.Potterseemstothinkrulesaremadetobebroken,”MGonagallreplied.

Draosnorted.

“He’snotbeenwell,Malfoy,”sheadded.

“Howdoyoumean?”

Notsik.Surely,hewouldhavereaditsomewhereifhewassik.Eveniftheywantedtokeepitunders,oneofthelessreliablegossipmagazineswouldhavegottenaholdofitan

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